I guess you can say my husband rubbed off on me, finally. Sorta. No worries about me becoming an overly tanned, 'roid puffed bodybuilding queen. I hated gym class where we had to run a mile, swim a certain stroke, learn basketball moves (do they even call them moves? whatever.) and all that stuff. I wasn't into it. I was out of shape. My asthma would flare up when I ran. Those weren't things I was interested in. I did enjoy tennis and softball but never had enough confidence to continue on. I felt i was bad at it and never pursued it to become better, just quit.
Amazing what 10 years, 2 kids, an education and a fit hubby can do for you. Or maybe I'm just over that self-conscious, caring what others think, thing. And, liking myself and my body; after all it's created and sustained 2 kids over the last 3 years, with the experience of all natural childbirth. Yeah, I like my body now. And I know that even if I suck at something at first, I can get better and I have to put some more effort into it.
Somehow, my body balloons up during pregnancy (yeah, I know, my fault probably) but loses it pretty quickly and with nursing, I keep losing more than I gained. Times two, that is amazing. I told Kevin last night that I weigh about 15-20lbs less now than when he married me. I weigh what I did in high school. For me, that's pretty amazing. I am tempted to try on my wedding dress and see it loose on me-if it wasn't packed away! Unfortunately, this has come at a cost...losing weight after pregnancies amounts to loose stomach skin that makes me gag, and losing weight after pregnancy and nursing equals a small chest. I have gone down in bra cup sizes...like 2 sizes. Yikes.
Okay so, I feel guilty saying that a large portion of this weight lose over the last 3 years hasn't been hard. That I really haven't done much to make it happen. I worked out here and there after Kian, I did keep active with walks, swimming, just playing with him, etc. Now I take a boxing fitness class (ROC boxing & fitness--"box your way to fitness") 1-2 times a week. I love it. It's always intrigued me and to learn proper boxing techniques, along with some cardio and conditioning portions adds up to a very intense, but fun, workout. This is the first organized, committed exercise I've done in....almost ever.
I think I hated exercise before because I didn't know how to do it properly, how much, when, and thought it had to be a forced, not fun thing. But, all the little things I do count as exercise and calorie burners too. Taking a walking, bike ride, chasing kids, going up and down 3 flights of stairs all day long, swimming, tennis, all the things I like to do-they count too. Finding what I like, what I'm good at, helps do it more. Also having Kevin wanting to do these things along with the boys now, gets us all active. It's a great bonding time tromping through the trails in the woods, or playing Frisbee with the puppy, swimming and playing in the pool, as well as exercise.
Until just last week, I thought runners were stupid. Like, really. Stupid. Like, I didn't get why you would want to run. A treadmill was boring for me too, but easier on the knees. And then just running around the road for no reason, I didn't get it. Then, with stress last week and all the little things annoying me and not being able to be as active as I wanted to, I suddenly had this "I need to go for a run" feeling. It was confusing. What?? A run? So, I took the dog and I ran in the trails. "Hmm...that made me feel better, got rid of some anger and stress, my body is now feeling good and Finn got exercise. Okay, so I sorta get it". I will never understand the marathon, long-distance runners. I get a couple miles, but 26 or whatever? Um, no. Take a car or a bike haha.
But, the most amazing thing? I could DO it. I mean, I could actually run a mile, with the puppy, without stopping, without almost dying. Usually what happens when I try to run is that my lungs explode before my legs get tired. But, between healthy eating, losing some weight and getting in shape, I can do it. My legs are getting tired before my lungs explode! It's amazing. For me, anyways. I can go to my boxing classes and it might be tough right then and there but I'm less sore each time, (and oddly I don't sweat much, but I'm working hard, I'm just weird that way I guess!) That knowing that I can now, pushes me to continue, I've seen results and changes and I like it! I finally, really feel like I'm in shape, and it feels good! It can be addicting and the more you make it a habit in your life, the more you will miss it when you don't make the time for it and don't do it.
next up: healthy eating....cuz it's raining today and my house is spotless so...I can!